I'm feeling rather whiney and I may have a little pitty party for myself later on. In the past week 3 or 4 times I have broke down into spontaneous bouts of crying for no apparent reason. It has me really glad that I have my job to go to so that I'm out of the house, around other people and not putting myself under a microscope all day long. Who would have thought that I would ever be glad to be going to work?
For today I'm going to just dig in the archives and pull something old out. So here we go. Totally random.
The file name for this was called doodle girl. If I remember correctly I scanned a coloring book page and then colored it in photoshop elements.
This was a motorcycle I spotted in the park that Wade and I would go to in the summer. They had free summer concerts there.
Well that's it for today. Time to head out
I am not surprised at all by this, they say that grieving takes at least a year. Work can be a big help though! What a cool sun dial. The bike must belong to a very patriotic person.
ReplyDeleteThe sundial has been standing in my back yard for a very long time
DeleteI can certainly understand your bursting into tears! Mourning is important. Please take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteThanks. I will
DeleteMy sister who lost her husband 5 years ago still cries if she doesn't keep herself busy. It's different for each person, Ann, but I think it's a normal healing process. Don't fret...you have US for support!! And family, work, Gibbs, and your crafts. Hug your pooch, take up a project, mow the grass under the snow (jk). Anything.
ReplyDeleteAnd I am so glad that I do have you guys. You've all been a great help to me
DeleteI appreciate the suggestions but think I'll pass on the mowing one...lol
you could spring clean all your gardening tools for when you do need them...btw love the "doodle girl"
DeleteWhat you are going through is normal. I'm into my 7th year and still have times where I cry. We lost part of ourselves that we will never get back.
ReplyDeleteIt is good that you have work. I lost my job because of boss selling the building and moving across the state. This was three years after Mark left this planet. My life has gotten busier with church, friends, visiting an elderly widow, gardening that's never ending etc. I have read and heard over and over again that widows can stand being alone, they are just lonely. I do a lot of reading and watching way too much you tube (sorry to say about you tube).
We grieve because we loved. Let your grief out, lock the memories into your heart and live one day at a time. I think you are doing rather well dear Ann. Blogging helped me a LOT.
Love, hugs and continued prayers for you ~ FlowerLady
I believe that crying and tears is the outlet to our emotions like the little thing that sits and jiggles on top of a pressure cooker. our emotions/grief boils and builds pressure and to keep us from exploding on the ceiling, we cry... cry on sweet friend. we love you lots.... p.s. when you get as old as I am it hurts the eyes so much to cry, we stop. at least that is my theory... hugs
ReplyDeleteforgot to say, love your color book coloring
ReplyDeleteJust do it - cry, wallow for a bit, you'll probably actually feel better...💜💜
ReplyDeleteYep, I agree, a good cry does help
DeleteBe easy on yourself, Ann. It's okay to cry...and to want to avoid alone time...AND even enjoy going to work. Work is routine..home is not. That's why you don't cry there. Well, that and nobody wants tears on their frosting. :) Hang tough, Annie! But know that it is okay to cry too.
ReplyDeleteLOL, I'll remember this if I ever get the urge to cry at work
DeleteNothing wrong with a pity party and a good cry - just tells you how much you loved Wade. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI guess we all have them from time to time
DeleteYou do what you have to do when you have to do it. It's all good. I'd love to give you a hug, but you're a long way away from me.
ReplyDeleteHave a fabulous day and weekend, Ann. Big hug to you and tons of scritches to Gibbs. ♥♥♥
Aww, thanks Sandee.
DeleteI love the little girl and that motor cycle is awesome. Sending you ((Hugs)) and I'm glad you have work to go to. Too much time on our hands can often bring us down. Take care.
ReplyDeleteTGIF a phrase the you will forget after retirement, LOL.
ReplyDelete38 days until spring, the cold here can grab you quick.Sending you a smile while I think of our friendship and hope it works.
ReplyDelete38 days until the calendar says it's spring but I bet it will take a bit longer for it to actually look like spring :)
DeleteThanks for the smile, I appreciate that and it does work
I've never lost a SO in this way...but from the comments, looks like it's quite normal to feel the way you do.
ReplyDeleteYes, I guess it is. It's good to know this isn't out of the ordinary
DeleteI am so sorry you are dealing with that...but I do understand. A day will go by that I don't cry then like this evening, I broke down over nothing. I just hope the days get better for you and I both. If not we should hold our pity party together.
ReplyDeleteLets hope that neither one of us attends the pity party. I'll hang in there if you will Pam :)
DeleteI'm sorry for what you're going through. Pity parties sometimes help. Wish I was closer so I could help you even if it's to just be there. Take care of yourself!
ReplyDeleteAww, thanks. My biggest problem is that 99% of the time, there isn't anyone here. I like my alone time but sometimes there's just too much of it.
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