Tuesday, November 9, 2021

thinking through the keyboard

Just some random thoughts running through my head today. 
I can't really explain it, but for some reason I just feel very uneasy and tense. There is no particular thing that's bothering me that I'm aware of, and yet I have this uneasy feeling. It also came with crying for absolutely no reason whatsoever. I had to leave the house for a while just to try and have some kind of distraction. I hope that it won't last long and I can be back to normal. Well, as normal as I can possibly be. For now, I will have a cup of tea and try and relax.

If you know me, then you know what a procrastinator I am. Gibbs and I both have been over due for hair cuts. I finally called and made an appointment for him yesterday. Unfortunately they are booked until Dec 7. Well he's looked like a stray mutt for this long I suppose he can wait another month. Now for me. I need to get a haircut before Amanda's wedding or my hair will be pulled back in a pony tail. 

I wish I could get myself motivated to do some things around here. So many things I want to do but I can't get myself to do any of them. On my days off I plan to tackle something but I end up sitting in front of the computer or the tv. 

Time to wrap this up. I'm starting to bore myself. 

13 comments:

Hootin Anni said...

Never boring.
Hope you can find something to motivate you that can turn the tide and wash away the doldrums. I'm confident you will. For now, look over your shoulder, talk with Gibbs, and smile!!! Give 'im a big hug.

MadSnapper said...

I get tension but most of the time I know why.. I hope you can figure out what is bothering you and once again OVERCOME. I am glad you forced your self to go out. That is hard to do when feeling overcome... praying for your day today be full of love and sunshine and that by end of day you are back to being YOU. the one we all love and care about... hang in there, my long time friend...

Rose said...

I hope you feel better soon...it is the awful to feel like that. I get that ever now and then...but most times I know why I feel tense. And it happens almost every day at some point...since Roger's stroke. At least most of the time now I know why I get that way, but have had times where I just felt so uneasy...and no clue why.

Sandi said...

Hope you like the tea! I suggest dandelion tea... 🙂

The Feminine Energy said...

Have you gone through menopause yet, honey? That's what your symptoms sound like. If not, perhaps this is the ebb & flow of your "insides" trying to adjust to something you're not even aware of. I believe in premonition and I also believe in intuition.... so maybe something is in the wind and you are emotionally sensing it but nothing concrete comes to mind. Listen to your spirit and listen to the wind... perhaps further information will be relayed to you later on down the line. Keep us posted, would you? ~Andrea xoxoxo

~Lavender Dreamer~ said...

I haven't felt motivated to do much lately either. Must be that time of year! Take care and don't worry about it...I need to heed my own advice! lol Hugs!

Ginny Hartzler said...

It sounds like you are getting depression, and the time change will not help. I am so sorry. I know it is hard, but try to get more light, that helps our endorphins.

crafty cat corner said...

I think with the world in turmoil at the moment we all feel a bit like this. Get crafting Anne, once you get going you know you will feel better.
I know that when I sit and crochet it lifts my spirits.
Briony
x

Sandee said...

Sometimes the gloomy weather makes you feel washed out. It happens to me for sure. Perhaps you're tired from working all the time and need the rest. There are so many reasons to feel down. Big healing hugs to you my friend.

Have a great day, Ann. Big hug to you and lots of scritches to the little guy that needs a groom. ♥♥♥

DeniseinVA said...

It’s the best thing to get out of the house when you are feeling uneasy about something you can’t quite put your finger on. I hope you feel better now. You’ll get round to those things and you’ll know when the time is right. In the meantime there’s no hurry, at least that’s what I tell myself ;) A hair cut sounds like a good idea. Getting my hair cut isn’t particularly my favorite thing to get done. I grew my hair so long it was a very long pony tail and I donated my hair for a wig. That was long! I hope you can get yours done before the wedding. I finally got mine cut before my nephew’s wedding last month and I felt a whole lot better for it. But pony tails are good too :) Does the tea work? I like chamomile and vanilla. A big hug for you and Gibb, and enjoy the rest of your week.

Debby@Just Breathe said...

Honestly Ann I could have written this post. It is exactly how I have been feeling and acting. I pray we both get to move on past this. I do believe a lot has to do with the pandemic and the fact that it isn't over yet!!! Take care. ((Hugs)) I will be praying for you.

Catherine - Mixed Media Artist said...

Is it the forthcoming wedding that is causing you to "stop and wonder" and as someone else said maybe menopause...

CheerfulMonk said...

I recently read, "When in pain distract the brain. Read a book." It made me smile, but when I feel uneasy and tense for no apparent reason I play Sudoku or do other puzzles. Going out to find some distraction is healthy too.

Taking baby steps on things you think you should be doing is fine, but I worry that you don't have much joy in your life. You work so hard. Getting rest and finding joy is more important.

Are you familiar with Julia Cameron's idea of artist's dates?

"The Artist Date is a once-weekly, festive, solo expedition to explore
something that interests you. The Artist Date need not be overtly
“artistic” — think mischief more than mastery. Artist Dates fire up the
imagination. They spark whimsy. They encourage play. Since art is about the play of ideas, they feed our creative work by replenishing our inner well of images and inspiration. When choosing an Artist Date, it is good to ask yourself, “what sounds fun?” — and then allow yourself to try it." https://juliacameronlive.com/basic-tools/artists-dates/

That might not work if what you really want is companionship, someone to have fun with. I wish there was something we could do to help.

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