I keep saying I'm doing things to keep myself distracted but I'm starting wonder if I'm not doing these things to avoid taking care of some things that I really need to look into. Bills are one example. Wade payed all the bills. We had separate checking accounts and it all came out of his so I never saw what was paid when. I really need to look at what is due for the month but can't get myself to go into his computer. That's another thing, all the bills went to his email so I don't have a paper copy to look at.
Any way, I've been going out for a walk every day, not a fast one, or a long one but one where I head down the road one foot in front of the other. I always have my cell phone on me and I stopped to take a couple pictures on one walk.
This may just sound odd and I know that everyone handles things like this differently but I just feel like I'm acting too normal. Example, I HAD to get my hair cut, it was atrocious as in couldn't have it out of a pony tail it had gotten so bad. Friday morning I drove over to Walmart to get it cut. As I was sitting in the chair while the girl was cutting I thought to myself should I really be here doing this now after what just happened. Maybe I just think too much and need to just let it go because I really need to mow the lawn too but that's another thing that just feels too normal.